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In Memory of Our Dear Susan and Cyrus

 

As a mother and grandmother, I tell my story as it comes to me.

 

Over a year and a half has passed and now I have the emotional ebullition to tell you about this.

 

This story I tell is for all our dear family, friends, colleagues, and students of Susan, teachers and friends of Cyrus.

 

I was the only one at that moment being aware of this catastrophe.

 

In the meantime, Bahram and I take this opportunity, while still devastated and going through a very painful time to thank you all for your kindness, touching thoughts, cards, e-mails and flowers.

 

We do appreciate all that love and concern toward our dearest Susan and Cyrus.

 

Your kind words and love will never be forgotten.  All our prayers are with Darius for the overwhelming loss that he had and still feels.

 

We pray that he will grow up happy and be able to go through his life with the missing love of his mother and his brother.

 

God bless all, with all our love,

 

Bahram and Fari

 

 

 

 

 

The Accident

 

By Fari Atefat

 

 

The terrifying sound of glass and metals.

The squeak of a break on asphalt.

The dust and sand in the air.

The rays of red light in the dark.

Hitting a sand truck!

 

That was how it happened.

My dear Cyrus flew away.

A single innocent Angel.

Six and a half years of age.

Then I saw my Susie.

Almost out of her soul.

Her arms went in the air.

Her eyes far ahead.

Looking after her other half.

Standing from her chair.

Looking in the air.

Where Cyrus flew away!

 

Saying OH MY GOD

With her arms in the air.

Half of her soul gone away.

No time was given

For her even to say

That her love was gone away.

 

When she got hit

She also flew away.

I saw all that.

I saw my loved one.

I saw both fly away.

 

My only daughter,

Sleeping in her blood.

An angel with no sound.

My dear grandson,

Out of my sight.

I could die myself.

I had no more breath.

I was shocked and numb.

No words could I say.

No thought except death.

 

Darius in my arms.

Half-way in coma.

I stopped and thought

GOD GIVE ME POWER.

GOD GIVE ME YOUR LOVE.

I felt right away

Darius needs me today.

 

I felt all his love.

I knew all his needs.

I felt all his warmth.

All in my arms.

OH MY DEAR LORD.

What could I do?

What could I say?

Joel moaning yet.

In a coma himself.

Not knowing the drama.

 

I was the only one.

I was there for a reason:

To save my grandson.

To be with Joel.

To tell the story

To my other loved ones.

 

I was all alone.

I was so shocked.

I wanted someone.

I wanted to talk.

I could not say a word.

I could see no more.

I needed a few hours.

 

My Cyrus was all gone.

My Susie half gone.

My thought for Susie

Was that with hope

She may overcome.

When they took her away

There was only Joel

Who was laying there.

I knew he was not dead.

I watched him all the way.

He was greatly hurt.

He was in great pain.

 

I could not feel myself.

I could not feel my hurts.

Then Darius was taken away.

I was there at the last.

To be taken away.

I felt all this pain.

I had to be there.

To see each one of them

Was taken care of.

 

All in the Hospital.

I was last to be there.

When I got there

Darius was fine.

Joel was critical.

Susie struggling.

I was taken care of,

But greatly in pain.

 

Then in no time

A helicopter was called.

We all had to go

With the condition we were in

To a bigger hospital there.

Everyone on a stretcher.

I saw my Susie,

Bundle on her head.

Still like an angel,

Sleeping quietly.

 

All of a sudden

Lots of commotion.

Doctor hands on her chest

Trying to save her.

Giving her more air,

But nothing had helped.

That is the time

In that helicopter

My Susie slipped away

Like a pearl in the ocean wave.

She just had to go

After her beautiful son.

As they were in one soul

And half was gone away.

 

Yes that was the time

That I saw Doctor’s thumb

Pointing down to signal.

Directed toward me,

To the doctor at my side.

In that helicopter

Was where she died.

God decided for her

To go after her son.

 

I felt in pieces.

I felt so much pain.

I was so numb.

My eyes fixed on her.

I felt my love

Is all gone now.

I felt my life

All of a sudden

Empty and alone.

 

She just died there.

In front of my eyes.

Now it was she

And her dear son.

OH MY GOD.

MY DEAR LORD.

What could I do.

I had to sit there

And watch her die.

In the second hospital

We all got a room.

Except my Susie.

Except my Cyrus.

 

I only saw her

A few seconds later

Being carried away.

Wrapped in muslin.

I guessed to a cold room

Not like our room

Where her other half went

Just two hours before her.

To be waited on there.

In order to be taken

Into their dream house.

To rest in peace now

On each other’s side.

And be together

For now and ever.

 

It tood a few hours

Until I could say

To my dear mother

Who was far away

Listening through the phone

For what I had to say.

 

There was an accident!

I am O.K.

With Joel and Darius.

But,

No more Susie,

And no more Cyrus.

What could I say more.

I need my Bahram

To come to us sooner,

For me to tell him

How it all happened.

 

That all of a sudden

We lost our loved ones.

We lost our hopes.

We lost our stars.

 

And we are alone

For ever and ever.

But,

God will help.

We have faith.

 

 

                Fari as Bibi, Broken in pieces

 

 

 

 

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